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“大海里有我,你不会被吞灭的,我可是美人鱼。”小男鱼握住洛青岩的手,随即又道,“我明白你的意思,而我也是在认真地告诉你,有我在,你不必害怕。”

被摸头的狸花猫顶了顶洛青岩的手,然后往年轻夫妇家门口跑,边跑边叫边回头。

昏暗之中,洛青岩眸光微动:“换个方式吧。”

虽然她搬到了荷风庭住,但也经常回外婆那边陪外婆。有时一起出门买菜,有时一起做饭、吃饭,时一起陪栗子玩,通常一待就是大半日。

出生与死亡同时进行

洛青岩没说话,她垂眸看小男鱼握住她的手。

“我的天,你真的要生了!”洛青岩愕然失色,她赶紧拿手机。还好国庆期间有一次碰到女邻居,对方给了她电话号码,万一有特殊情况可以给对方打电话。

洛青岩的头靠在小男鱼胸膛,她稍微用力靠紧对方:“不,不怪你,是我自己的内心在崩塌,所以才会……你很好,但正是因为你太好了……亲朋好友希望我有个好归宿,见过你的都觉得满意,我……反而有压力。我怕我会让他们失望,我怕我会让你失望,我怕我会让自己失望。”

洛青岩出电梯的同时听到楼梯间传来猫咪的叫声,关键这叫声又长又响亮,和平时的“喵喵”叫完全不一样,有种呼唤求助的感觉。

“我没事,但是猫咪有事,它要生宝宝了!”洛青岩回应完小男鱼后拨通了电话,“喂!你好,我是荷风庭的邻居。狸花猫要生宝宝了,现在正待在门口的窝里面。”

开门声响起,紧接着就是小男鱼着急的询问声。

没想到的是,回到荷风庭后发生了点不寻常的事。

今天也是这样,陪外婆外出购物、吃午饭、带栗子散步,快到晚饭时间才回荷风庭。

“目前的我没有办法完全理解人类的想法,所以我说的可能不够好,不能很好地开导你。可是我一定会陪着你,你有任何想法都可以告诉我,你让我做什么我就做什么,只要能让你舒心。”小男鱼盯着洛青岩的眼睛,“我喜欢你,只要你也喜欢我,我们一定能结成契约,我很期待。”

洛青岩也望着小男鱼的眼睛,即使在黑暗中,对方的眼睛也有光亮。她思忖片刻,缓缓开口:“只有喜欢是不够的,我担心的就是……你理解不了人类的想法,正如我理解不了人鱼的真爱。也许细水长流可以慢慢理解,可是……我没有那么多时间了……我一着急,更加觉得我们之间……不够纯粹,我就愈发担心。”

“你,不会是要生了吧?”洛青岩瞪大双眼,木木地摸了摸狸花猫的头,“现在吗?”

“嗯……我,努力排解内心的……我可以……总之,会好起来的,一定会好起来的。”

她停下回家的脚步,站在电梯间等了等。几秒后狸花猫从楼梯间出来,看见有人在,边叫边走向人,然后在人的腿边蹭来蹭去。

“你很好,所以身边的人才会希望你过得更好。况且,这些都不该怪你,你生病了,是病人,迫不得已,身边人该照顾、理解你才对,哪有责怪病人的道理?”小男鱼的声音又轻又暖,仿佛能包裹着保护人。

洛青岩跟了上去,然后就看到狸花猫躺在年轻夫妇为它准备的窝里面,开始缓缓喘气,越喘越急促,身体还不停地乱动。

“咣当——”

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感觉自己现在就是茫茫大海中的一根小草,随时会被吞灭。”

-

“你没事吧?”

这日,洛青岩一早去了外婆家。

小男鱼眉心微动,他站起身,用双手将洛青岩揽入怀中:“对不起,是我没有给够你安全感。如果我们之间的感情更纯粹些,没有那些附加的复杂东西,或许你就能安心。”

许高迪离开后,洛青岩和小男鱼的生活再次变得平淡。

“如果你想哭,就哭出来吧,尽情地哭,把心中的苦闷发泄出来,至少让此时此刻的自己舒坦些。”

“喵——”狸花猫拖长声音,继续蹭洛青岩的腿。

“你还没有生宝宝啊?”洛青岩发现狸花猫的肚子仍旧是大的,她蹲下身,“你是饿了吗?”

-

说着,她站起身,双手搭在小男鱼的肩头,仰头闭眼,亲吻对方。

“现在?”女邻居的声音十分慌张,“可以麻烦你帮忙先看着吗?我现在还在高铁上,我会让我老公尽快赶回去,他回去之前麻烦你了,拜托了。”

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