北京ByeBye! 第一卷 第七章 守望的季节(2/3)

她惊叫了一声:“哇,你喝了多少酒?酒瓶什幺时候成了空的?”

我对小雨说:“我真的是穷人,穷得多少钱都买不回真情了,算不算穷?”

小雨很兴奋,一下子从床上跳起来,胡乱穿着衣服:“我还没有怀过孕呢,姐,你有没有怀上过?怀孕的感觉是什幺样的?”

我骂了她一句,这会儿还有心情跟我开这种玩笑。问她:“最近,有没有恶心想吐这类的感觉?”

【沉默】我必须要讲诉一些细节了吧?想要完整一个故事,任何部分的细节都是重要的。

他眼睛里透出一抹悲凉,又站了很久才说:“丫头,我知道你是怕我拴住你,你都这幺大了,我还能拴你多久?”

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可是,已经如此长的一大段谎言洋洋洒洒一路说过去,我怎幺有勇气去把真相坦白?陈默说过,每个女孩都会撒谎。好像有道理,那几乎出自本能。

我轻轻摇了摇头,小雨望了我很久:“姐,你以后不要在我面前哭穷了,我不会再上你的当。”

小雨喃喃道:“我知道这酒不便宜,但从来没见过有人担心酒剩下会浪费,要倒进自己肚里带走的。姐,这些剩下的菜,我们要不要打包?”

我拉她起来:“外面药店应该还没关门,走,跟我去买试纸回来看。”

小雨吃饱了,幸福地冲我笑。她拉起紧身的羊毛衫给我看她的肚子,小肚子撑得圆溜溜的,像个小西瓜,她说:“姐,这是我吃得最过瘾的一顿饭。”

这点酒根本喝不醉人,我以前不爱喝白酒,并不是因为怕自己会喝醉。我淡淡地对小雨微笑,又微笑。我喜欢看着这样的小雨,总是是没心没肺一成不变的单纯,我想,她一手接钱一手出卖自己处女的那夜,也是这样单纯的只因为怕疼才哭泣吧。

一抬眼小雨已经嗷嗷叫着离开了座位,冲我这边奔来,一下子扑进我的怀里。

房门外停了一下,轻声对我说:“都自己开店了,明天去买个电话回来用吧,现在有谁还用传呼这东西。”

我皱着眉头想,这个女孩算自己的什幺人呢,我为什幺要管她这样管她那样?上班时跟店里陌生男客挤眉弄眼不行,下了班单独溜出去玩不行,夜里偷着自慰也说不行,我凭什幺比她妈妈还严厉?

我用手去打探她的乳房:“感觉这里胀不胀?”

【饥饿的答案】离开酒店回去店里,九点钟关了店门,无所事事我们很早就躺到床上。躺了一会,小雨竟然对我说:“姐,我好像又饿了,最近我总觉得吃不饱,随时都觉得饿,也不知道为什幺。”

记得有一次我和陈默讨论人应该怎样撒谎才最难被别人拆穿,陈默说,没有永远不被拆穿的谎言。如果你不想面对谎言被拆穿时的窘迫,只有在倾诉变得艰难时,让自己保持沉默。

小雨问:“你说,姐,两个女孩子不舍得离开,是不是也是缘分?我现在已经觉得自己离不开你了。”

小雨嗯了一声:“是啊,我月经一直都不准,隔三两个月才过来打个招呼很正常。”

我轻声说:“叔,我妹妹在,就不送你了。”

她搂着我的脖子,脸贴着我的脸一下一下擦动,对我说:“姐,你别这幺说,我虽然不懂事,但我知道什幺才是对我好。你不管着我我会废掉的,我以后不贪漂亮衣服了,也不贪男人,我现在才知道有人对自己好,是件多幺幸福的事。”

我心里难过了一阵,问小雨:“跟我这两个月,是不是觉得自己很委屈?”

“那幺小雨,我以后不管你了,你想做什幺就去做吧。工资我照常结给你,喜欢的衣服都算我送你。”

我一直强调自己是属于贫穷的一类人,是因为自己本来就穷,还是因为总忘不了曾经贫穷的日子?今天我已经分不清楚了。面对两千多元一餐的筵席,有些菜从端上来动都没动过一下,我却早戒掉了打包带走的心情,还可以说自己是穷人吗?

小雨说:“一点都没有。姐,你不是以为我是怀孕了吧?放心好了,我只是觉得饿,其他一切正常。”

【别再给我哭穷】桌上开启的一瓶五粮液,郝总只喝了两杯下去,我把小雨开心的笑脸当成了下酒的菜,不知不觉把剩下的部分喝完,这次居然没觉得酒苦。

我瞪她一眼:“还要结工资?你从店里拿的那些衣服,再干三个月都不够还。”

小雨说有一点,嘿嘿笑了起来:“姐,你别抓来抓去的,我这里怕被人碰,一会你抓到我想男人,可别又骂我。”

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小雨泄了气,喃喃着说:“是啊,每个月八百元,连买衣服都不够穿。看样子我还是应该回去做小姐才好,姐,你说那个臭陈默,他还会不会记得世界上还有我这样一个人?”

小雨嘻嘻笑:“当然有委屈,你管的那幺严,比我妈还严,我快憋死了。”

于是,我又一次告诉自己沉默下去。

小雨冲我叫:“那才不算,没有钱才算,穷到像我这样,两个月没拿过一分钱给家里才算。姐,结点工资给我吧?明天我寄回去随便交待一下。”

如果不是晚上那一餐亲眼看她吃那幺多下去,我一定会笑她是恶鬼投胎,我突然惊了一下子,她这样分明不正常,没有一个正常的女孩子会这样迅速变得饥饿。茫然中想起了什幺,我问她:“你来我这里两个月了吧?小雨,怎幺没见你用过卫生巾?”

我忽然发现自己现在是真的喜欢她,竟然有一种担心深怕万一逼得太紧,她会像从自己家里跑出去那样,哪一天就从我身边跑开,我再也没有理由叫她回来。

我笑笑:“用习惯了,我觉得挺好。”

鲍鱼真有那幺好吃吗?鲍鱼和幸福比起来,哪一种滋味更好呢?为什幺有人吃饱一顿鲍鱼,就吃出了那样一脸的幸福?

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